Nootka, I finished reading "Strange and Dangerous Dreams: The Fine Line Between Adventure and Madness" by Geoff Powter. I’ve also got Deep Survival by L. Gonzales next on my reading list. I wasn’t sure what “We Cannot Fail”, also by Powter, might have to offer or if it is an overlap to his other book I just read. I did send him a Facebook question about that. As I do a little writing for Sea Kayaker Magazine and knowing the editorial staff prefers their contributors to have a working understanding of risk analysis, risk-management thinking, and other psychological aspects of risk-taking behaviour, your suggested reads have been - and I’m sure will be - beneficial. It may help me understand a little bit more about myself, having lost my father at 12 (a common theme in the stories in S&DD) where the next year found me climbing in the Purcell Mountains and eventually solo adventuring by kayak in extremis in the 80’s when most folks were approaching sea kayaking in a more prudent manner.
I’m not too sure what the final conclusion was in Strange and Dangerous Dreams, though obviously irrationality is an insidious master that has not only brought some adventurers to the brink - step by step in some cases - but caused some to walk off that edge beyond all apparent measure of madness. Irrationality and imperious ambition seem to not only be restricted to the adventures themselves but to those funding some of the exploits as well as those in positions of governance. It was fascinating reading in some of the chapters, revising my views on some of the great heroes I’d read about in my youth. There are veins of despondency and depression running through the book that are emotionally affective and mining the gold requires the reader to follow the writer’s logic and connect the dots to get that view of healthier adventure into the sharper relief promised.
Though Powter kept the clinic psychology to an acceptable lay-persons level of interest, he was obviously able to infer and render clinical observation based on what appears to be some very good research – some perhaps exclusive, much second hand of course. I don’t think I fully understood some of Powter’s thesis and expository rendering until I had finished the book, by which time I fully comprehended that much of the tragedy culminated at the end of each tale written wasn’t the result of the mental burden that weighed on each man and woman, but rather the burdens they were carrying were done so looking for resolve from deep, harrowing anguish. I think this applied to more than just the first four profiled in the book. I don’t think legitimate exploration and adventure in the wilderness are the correct props, obviously, for those so distressed, and certainly not the best place to be if a psychological malignancy is evolving. It can be a fine line, indeed. As a salve to life’s normal stresses, as a test of a man or woman’s resolve to respect and overcome challenge in nature, and as place to find light in a sometimes darkened life – well, adventure in the wilderness can provide sustenance and growth.
Me, I just like to get out and have fun and find some temporary respite from life’s demands at home and work. And if a guy wishes to paddle off a waterfall, I’m not going to judge. I just hope he makes it back home to bed that night. Though my wife did ask me once if I might be better on the couch when I got home late after night storm kayaking once; I assume she didn’t mean the one in the psychiatrist’s office. And if a fellow kayaker screws up on the water, I might ask some questions about where and why their heuristics failed to manage the risk. I won’t question their sanity.
Best, Doug